I'm moving to a different blogging site. It's too difficult for me to visit this site every day like I'd like to. Between logging into all my accounts with my yahoo! mail and then having to sign into my gmail to get here which logs me out of my actual youtube account and into some random gmail youtube account... It's just a lot and frustrating. Plus it seems like no matter what I do this blog just has a mysterious, dark, awkward feeling due to the page set up and just... The way the layout of the page is. I'm looking for something new this year that better reflects my personality so I'm moving to Thoughts.com.
I hope to better my presence in the blogosphere with this site move! Here is where I'm going:
AlexPunkBunny at Thoughts.com!
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Sunday, January 13, 2013
1/13/13
I am already sick of school e.e
Anyways. Let's see... I need to organize my thoughts...
Okay we'll start here. So first week back to Glee (YAY), and we all got slammed for not having our practice sheets, but the ONE FRIEND who is NEVER prepared for anything had his today =.= it was embarrassing. Our punishment for not bringing our practice sheets is a duet. Yup. Everyone who didn't bring their practice sheets got stuck in a duet with someone else who didn't bring their practice sheets. I got paired with Day. I love her, and she's a great singer. But... She sings so soft... And I sing so... Loud. I don't want to overpower her so that she can't be heard (thus making me look like an attention whore) and I not only sound horrible trying to sing softly but I can't. When I sing softly my voice practically disappears. It's just because of the voice I have :S And then get this: The only one who DID bring his practice sheet, and he WANTED to do a duet! *facepalm* so he got stuck in a trio with Day and myself. This is a little better, I mean, Flo sings rather nicely in a group. But the problems overflow from this like a fountain. Day and Flo decided without me that we were going to the the Pokemon theme e.e I can't sing the pokemon theme. At all. The notes are too... Like... Normal. And I only know the first verse. PLUS someone in our trio that volunteered to make colorcoded lyrics (everyone in the trio has to sing a solo) and he hasn't gotten them to me yet. And has had no contact with me, even when I tried to contact him. So as if it weren't bad enough I'm singing with like, the least powerful (that's not offensive >:l ) singers in Glee, we're singing a song I can't sing. Plus, like, this weekend would have been perfect to practice. I was home alone, like, all weekend. But I didn't have the coded lyrics so I couldn't TT-TT Now I'll have to try to practice while my parents are home. My house is so tiny everyone can hear me because I sing so loudly. I hate that. I don't know if I'm good or not and I don't want my mom in the other room thinking I'm stupid for putting so much effort into singing. Which she will. She's always been like that. Oh yeah. And the duets are due by THIS next wednesday... Tengoku no haha shin'ainaru...
I enjoyed most of my week. Or tried to anyways. I honestly don't feel like bitching anymore XD But my weekend went pretty well, too. I'm excited. I'm almost completely finished learning Romeo and Cinderella. Which, when I first started, looked like the hardest dance ever. And this is the hardest dance ever. LOL. I keep spelling "hardest" heardest for some reason XD anyways, I'm so unbelievably proud of myself for conquering this dance.
Here are some pictures from this week, & explain each of them, since my friends are fahktards:
Dani (our token football fan) tackled Nick (the guy he's wrapped around) who proceeded to fall on his ass :3
Emmanuel and Juanito~
Gaby & Flo <3 I don't know what I'd do if these two weren't in my life
Annika, Gaby, and Flo returning from their Lunchquest - Anni is flailing at me
Did some roleplaying Friday :l
And Annika telling us she has not yet lost her finger in an archery accident (that's how it started you know)
Anyways. Let's see... I need to organize my thoughts...
Okay we'll start here. So first week back to Glee (YAY), and we all got slammed for not having our practice sheets, but the ONE FRIEND who is NEVER prepared for anything had his today =.= it was embarrassing. Our punishment for not bringing our practice sheets is a duet. Yup. Everyone who didn't bring their practice sheets got stuck in a duet with someone else who didn't bring their practice sheets. I got paired with Day. I love her, and she's a great singer. But... She sings so soft... And I sing so... Loud. I don't want to overpower her so that she can't be heard (thus making me look like an attention whore) and I not only sound horrible trying to sing softly but I can't. When I sing softly my voice practically disappears. It's just because of the voice I have :S And then get this: The only one who DID bring his practice sheet, and he WANTED to do a duet! *facepalm* so he got stuck in a trio with Day and myself. This is a little better, I mean, Flo sings rather nicely in a group. But the problems overflow from this like a fountain. Day and Flo decided without me that we were going to the the Pokemon theme e.e I can't sing the pokemon theme. At all. The notes are too... Like... Normal. And I only know the first verse. PLUS someone in our trio that volunteered to make colorcoded lyrics (everyone in the trio has to sing a solo) and he hasn't gotten them to me yet. And has had no contact with me, even when I tried to contact him. So as if it weren't bad enough I'm singing with like, the least powerful (that's not offensive >:l ) singers in Glee, we're singing a song I can't sing. Plus, like, this weekend would have been perfect to practice. I was home alone, like, all weekend. But I didn't have the coded lyrics so I couldn't TT-TT Now I'll have to try to practice while my parents are home. My house is so tiny everyone can hear me because I sing so loudly. I hate that. I don't know if I'm good or not and I don't want my mom in the other room thinking I'm stupid for putting so much effort into singing. Which she will. She's always been like that. Oh yeah. And the duets are due by THIS next wednesday... Tengoku no haha shin'ainaru...
I enjoyed most of my week. Or tried to anyways. I honestly don't feel like bitching anymore XD But my weekend went pretty well, too. I'm excited. I'm almost completely finished learning Romeo and Cinderella. Which, when I first started, looked like the hardest dance ever. And this is the hardest dance ever. LOL. I keep spelling "hardest" heardest for some reason XD anyways, I'm so unbelievably proud of myself for conquering this dance.
Here are some pictures from this week, & explain each of them, since my friends are fahktards:
Sunday, January 6, 2013
6/1/13
I'm writing this blog in the morning because I plan on being very busy tonight.
Yesterday I began working on a dance for the song "Ah! It's A Wonderful Cat Life". I'm sure it already has a dance, but I probably wouldn't like it XP I've also been practicing Romeo and Cinderella really hard. A couple days ago Amaris recruited me for a 50 dance video collaboration. She didn't want to do it by herself so she asked me to do it with her. I'm nervous because out of the 50 dances, I only know maybe 5 or 6 of them. We'll be spending some time learning the dances and then putting them together at the end. I'm happy to be a part of a project like this. I love big projects.
On a different note, I've decided to make this a photo blog. So basically I'm going to take pictures of things in my day and put them in the blog. I like taking pictures of the things around me, and maybe the pictures will make my blog more entertaining for anyone that happens to come across it. Included in this blog are two pictures of my dog Lucy in our backyard. It's a bit of a hassle plugging my phone into the computer just to transfer a couple pictures, but it'll be worth it in the end. After all, this blog is for me to look back on later on in life, and pictures hold memories better than words.
Thursday, January 3, 2013
3/1/13 - Reflecting on Years Past & Predicting the Year to Come
Well alright, it's a new year, and in case you haven't noticed yet, I've decided to give my blog an exciting new look. Like it? Well I've got a lot to write about so I guess I better get started.
Yeah, I know I didn't come and post a new entry right at the start of the new year >:P I was awake, and I didn't forget about it, I was just busy watching the celebration in New York. I would like to say a few words about the previous year and the year to come, however. I realize now that last year, for me, was about experiencing and learning. And believe me I learned a lot. I learned that I shouldn't let people walk all over me, and that if I really don't want something, I should say no. I realized that you should never think "That sort of thing will never happen to me." because it did happen, and it ruined me. I wasted a year and lost someone I still love today. This year for me, will be about taking the things I learned from my experiences last year, and using them to better myself. This year is about me, a child, stepping up and becoming more mature. Doing the things I don't want to do, and taking responsibility for myself, fearless of the outcome. I realize that I'm really quite immature in some little ways (which end up effecting me in BIG ways). I am lazy. I am short tempered. I am overly-concerned. This year, I hope to change that. I already see the changes in myself, too. I am slowly -but surely- becoming less lazy, and more likely to jump up and do things as soon as I know they need to be done. I'm learning to, when I spot a problem, settle down and remind myself that things will fix themselves in time, and that attempting to fix them myself will only cause more harm rather than fixing the problem. This is a year of self realization for me, and I've been gifted with a new fire, a new passion for life within itself that has begun to motivate me daily to venture forth and do things I'd normally be too hesitant, or otherwise horrified to do before. I look forward to every experience and challenge 2013 has for me, and I will face it head-on, or embrace it with open arms. For me, now, I will leave no stone un-turned, no question un-answered, and no thought unspoken. This is the year I teach myself how to become an adult. This is the year I do what I want (Thor! >:l [lol ruined the moment]), and become who I want, regardless the challenge. And I feel fearless now. I know that at times things will be difficult, maybe I might even think it's unbearable, but I realize now that taking on these challenges, and doing these things, are a part of growing up, and will mold me into the kind of adult I want to be.
Setting aside my sappy New Year's speech (I think I deserve an award. Or a sticker at least >:<), some neat things happened today. I went shopping with my mom and then went to Barnes & Noble. It was hard for me because, as much as I hate talking about it, people make me nervous. Being in public makes me nervous. And one of the phsychoblehblehbleh I seen told me that I need to start addressing this problem now, and force myself to go out, because if I don't I could develop an intense fear of leaving my house. I already felt that fear setting in, so I think it really woke me up to hear someone else -especially a certified doctor- tell me I needed to do something. I was there completely alone. Usually I go places with friends or family, and things are a bit easier, but when I'm alone around a lot of people I get nervous at first. Then shaky. Then dizzy. Then I just feel like I'm going to faint or get sick. Luckily for me it only got to the dizzy part before my mom showed up to take me home. While I was there I also feel as though I handled some situations a lot better than I would normally. First, some creeper (probably drunk or on some type of drug) approached me while I was looking at some art books. Normally, in this situation, I'd get all sweaty and nervous as soon as I noticed the person approaching me, but not this time. He asked me if I'd "seen any chicken books", and I calmly and politely, without looking at him, said that I hadn't and then he left. While to anyone else I'm sure avoiding a creep in a book store the way I had would be a no-brainer, but to me this was a great achievement. In this situation before now I would have gotten nervous, scoffed at him nervously, and probably said something that would have queued an attempt at conversation on his part, which I would have been too afraid of to attempt avoiding. I'm glad I've grown in this way. Then, later on I brought a book up to the check-out counter that I didn't have enough money for, however, I didn't realize this until the cashier had already scanned the bar code on the book and the gift card I was using @.@ so she had to call over her manager to undo the transaction and then go and put the book back. I wanted to offer taking the book back to the shelf myself since I knew where it went but, I thought at the time that might seem weird on my part. Normally I would have gotten so nervous and embarrassed in this situation that I would have came close to tears. But this time, while I did feel rather stupid and slightly embarrassed, I didn't get so nervous I could have puked. I feel triumphant. I also got a job application while I was there. Woop! I'm so happy Barnes & Noble still carries paper copies! Now-a-days most businesses ask you to fill out an application online or print one up and bring it in instead. We don't have a printer, which makes finding a job that much harder on me since I'm too nervous to go to the library and ask about using the computer and printing and all that. I hope to fill in most of it tonight, have my mother help fill in the rest tomorrow, and then maybe turn it in on Saturday. I really hope I'll get to work there soon, even though I don't think they're really looking for new employees right now. It would be a lot easier for me to handle with my people phobia than a typical fast food job would. Plus, I think I'd feel more comfortable working around all the books and bookworms. Whenever I go there I'm re-alphabetizing the shelves anyways. It really bothers me when people put back a book in the wrong place. I mean, how is someone else supposed to find it if they're looking for it and it's in the wrong place!
Anyways, a lot of good is going on right now, and while things can always get worse, I'm sure things will only get better. Here's to a great new year. Goodnight and I wish you well ^-^
Yeah, I know I didn't come and post a new entry right at the start of the new year >:P I was awake, and I didn't forget about it, I was just busy watching the celebration in New York. I would like to say a few words about the previous year and the year to come, however. I realize now that last year, for me, was about experiencing and learning. And believe me I learned a lot. I learned that I shouldn't let people walk all over me, and that if I really don't want something, I should say no. I realized that you should never think "That sort of thing will never happen to me." because it did happen, and it ruined me. I wasted a year and lost someone I still love today. This year for me, will be about taking the things I learned from my experiences last year, and using them to better myself. This year is about me, a child, stepping up and becoming more mature. Doing the things I don't want to do, and taking responsibility for myself, fearless of the outcome. I realize that I'm really quite immature in some little ways (which end up effecting me in BIG ways). I am lazy. I am short tempered. I am overly-concerned. This year, I hope to change that. I already see the changes in myself, too. I am slowly -but surely- becoming less lazy, and more likely to jump up and do things as soon as I know they need to be done. I'm learning to, when I spot a problem, settle down and remind myself that things will fix themselves in time, and that attempting to fix them myself will only cause more harm rather than fixing the problem. This is a year of self realization for me, and I've been gifted with a new fire, a new passion for life within itself that has begun to motivate me daily to venture forth and do things I'd normally be too hesitant, or otherwise horrified to do before. I look forward to every experience and challenge 2013 has for me, and I will face it head-on, or embrace it with open arms. For me, now, I will leave no stone un-turned, no question un-answered, and no thought unspoken. This is the year I teach myself how to become an adult. This is the year I do what I want (Thor! >:l [lol ruined the moment]), and become who I want, regardless the challenge. And I feel fearless now. I know that at times things will be difficult, maybe I might even think it's unbearable, but I realize now that taking on these challenges, and doing these things, are a part of growing up, and will mold me into the kind of adult I want to be.
Setting aside my sappy New Year's speech (I think I deserve an award. Or a sticker at least >:<), some neat things happened today. I went shopping with my mom and then went to Barnes & Noble. It was hard for me because, as much as I hate talking about it, people make me nervous. Being in public makes me nervous. And one of the phsychoblehblehbleh I seen told me that I need to start addressing this problem now, and force myself to go out, because if I don't I could develop an intense fear of leaving my house. I already felt that fear setting in, so I think it really woke me up to hear someone else -especially a certified doctor- tell me I needed to do something. I was there completely alone. Usually I go places with friends or family, and things are a bit easier, but when I'm alone around a lot of people I get nervous at first. Then shaky. Then dizzy. Then I just feel like I'm going to faint or get sick. Luckily for me it only got to the dizzy part before my mom showed up to take me home. While I was there I also feel as though I handled some situations a lot better than I would normally. First, some creeper (probably drunk or on some type of drug) approached me while I was looking at some art books. Normally, in this situation, I'd get all sweaty and nervous as soon as I noticed the person approaching me, but not this time. He asked me if I'd "seen any chicken books", and I calmly and politely, without looking at him, said that I hadn't and then he left. While to anyone else I'm sure avoiding a creep in a book store the way I had would be a no-brainer, but to me this was a great achievement. In this situation before now I would have gotten nervous, scoffed at him nervously, and probably said something that would have queued an attempt at conversation on his part, which I would have been too afraid of to attempt avoiding. I'm glad I've grown in this way. Then, later on I brought a book up to the check-out counter that I didn't have enough money for, however, I didn't realize this until the cashier had already scanned the bar code on the book and the gift card I was using @.@ so she had to call over her manager to undo the transaction and then go and put the book back. I wanted to offer taking the book back to the shelf myself since I knew where it went but, I thought at the time that might seem weird on my part. Normally I would have gotten so nervous and embarrassed in this situation that I would have came close to tears. But this time, while I did feel rather stupid and slightly embarrassed, I didn't get so nervous I could have puked. I feel triumphant. I also got a job application while I was there. Woop! I'm so happy Barnes & Noble still carries paper copies! Now-a-days most businesses ask you to fill out an application online or print one up and bring it in instead. We don't have a printer, which makes finding a job that much harder on me since I'm too nervous to go to the library and ask about using the computer and printing and all that. I hope to fill in most of it tonight, have my mother help fill in the rest tomorrow, and then maybe turn it in on Saturday. I really hope I'll get to work there soon, even though I don't think they're really looking for new employees right now. It would be a lot easier for me to handle with my people phobia than a typical fast food job would. Plus, I think I'd feel more comfortable working around all the books and bookworms. Whenever I go there I'm re-alphabetizing the shelves anyways. It really bothers me when people put back a book in the wrong place. I mean, how is someone else supposed to find it if they're looking for it and it's in the wrong place!
Anyways, a lot of good is going on right now, and while things can always get worse, I'm sure things will only get better. Here's to a great new year. Goodnight and I wish you well ^-^
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